thank you so much anon! it really means a lot!:)
*hides good snacks from family members*
I always want what I can’t have.
I always want the assholes, the married ones, even the gay ones. But the second a nice, decent guy is interested I can’t do anything more than lead them on and drop them because I find something wrong with them. Even if that thing is “them being too nice.”
I constantly bitch and whine that I can’t find a nice guy, but I go after the opposite. I go after the guys that treat me like shit. The guys that are so dense, and have absolutely no substance or anything special about them. I feel like I’ve hurt so many people because of how bad I am with commitment and feelings, that I lead them on and just stop talking to them. I run, I get scared. I don’t understand myself sometimes.